Count It All Joy

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that testing of your faith produces patience. (James1:2-3)
17 January 2017, my love one admitted to hospital and diagnosed with cancer. Cancer, such a common and dreadful news, it was terrible feeling when I heard the news. How often we heard about it but never really bother that it might one day slip into our loved one. I still can remember the tears just burst into uncontrolled emotional breakdown. It was the testing of faith but I failed to acknowledge all thing is under God hand at that moment. Soon i resigned my job in KL and then rushed back to my hometown. Pastor and his wife is kind enough to give my sister and myself encouragement and support throughout that time. Not to mention the church actually come  together and pray for this matter. What make me fear the most is my dad is not a Christian, the fear of him fall into the fiery pit really shaken me. I rushed back and met my father at the hospital. Suddenly i can sense my father has been losing weight, the edges are clearly shown on the face. He looked pale and jaundice due to liver failure. No mercy has been given, one after another announment is about how worse his situation is. No medication can treat as it was classified as late stage only best supportive treatment given. It was desperate situation, everyone is holding back the tears and crying at the corner. Yet, when there is no hope given, i found hope, God open the door to my parents heart, gospel been preached to them for the first time. The Words of God will jot come back vain, so the seeds were sown. What a miracle after many years.
We went back home and continue to live and battling with the disease. The whole lifestyle changed , eating healthier and wholesome foods, boosting immune system via probiotic, enzyme and fruit juices. At the same time, we also try herbal medicine.
鳄嘴花Clinacanthus nutans，别名千里追、柔刺草、沙巴蛇草Sabah snake grass
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雞骨草（學名：Abrus cantoniensis，英文名稱：Prayer-beads）
We tried as much as we could. Books were bought, video to explain bout the disease were downloaded to improve understanding. We encourage him to exercise a bit everyday. He seems perfectly fine except the ascite, the fluid accumulating in the abdomen is getting more and more. 20th Mar, he was admitted again to hospital. He couldn't breath well when the ascite actually suppressed his lung. Doctor remove 2 litres of fluid. My mother and myself take turn to care for him in hospital. I have failed to be dependent on God and indulge in various ways to run away from my responsibilities. When my dad was in the middle.of the drainage process, i looked at the blue curtain separating two different worlds in which my dad is striving and  where I could do nothing, nothing at all to relieve him of any discomfort. Then I noticed again, God can make impossible to be possible. Therein, God restore my faith again and again. He also reminding me the timing of God is perfect, my sister came back for a week for school holiday and that is the period my dad is being hospitalised. And now here am i accompanying my father in the hospital holding my little bible seeking comfort from God. 22 Mar 2017 10:07am, Hospital Serian.