Puppy with three legs

My neighbour recently has a puppy with only three legs. It is born like that and it has to live with it. Today I finally got to meet with it. Oh how lovely to see the puppy happily jumping around, if i look carefully i might not notice it has only three little legs. True enough what we are lacking should not stop us to live happily, to enjoy life. Why let the disapointment, dissatisfaction or even the disability stopping us from pursuing better life, to live a cheerful, joyful life? Knowing that what change one life is how the heart react to this world. If You have a bigger heart to contain more thing, you know nothing can let you down!! Be of cheerful heart knowing that God will never leave nor forsake you!!. :)

Overcoming Departure of Loved One

When i thought i already overcome the passing away of my loved one, i just realised it is not so. 48 days has passed but i am still feel sudden sorrow when thinking of my late dear father.The emotion that comes faster than my thought often trigger sadness and much pain in the heart. When i was waiting in the bank, i thought of him who used to wait in the bank, when i sitting at the sofa, i look at the empty sofa where he used to sit. A simple trigger brought back all the memory, it is like pulling a string deep embedded but that simple pulling dig it all out. Yet, i can't let myself indulge in it, i have responsibility and obligation to fulfill. The reason i am writing all these is not to self pity myself. I want to tell myself that it takes time to overcome the sadness. And to remember it is not me who will feel like this, mom who is the other half can feel even more.  Hence, spend more time with those who are still living, share the pain and cheer each other up. So be strong and be encouraged knowing that thing happen for a reason and as Christian, Romans 8:28 is there to tell all things happen for good.

In short, to overcome grief:
1. Accept the reality and give yourself some allowance of time to settle down
2. Accompany those who are still living and be of good cheer to them
3. Always share with someone your sadness and the pain, never try to hide it or think you can handle by urself
4. If you are Christian, know that God is always there for you and He is in absolute control, He is your stronghold and your ultimate help. Pray therefore and seek comfort in the Words. 

The sky is wide, have the heart as wide as the sky and you'll be fine anywhere anytime.

Seasonal Life

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8King James Version (KJV)

3 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

² A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

³ A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

⁴ A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

⁵ A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

⁶ A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

⁷ A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

⁸ A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

He is already gone, my dearest father and my hero for 25 years old. Though I keep hoping you are still around but you had gone to other world. My heart aches but it is a reality to be accepted. Dear father, i wish i have more time to spend with you, i wish that i can bring you around the world, i wish.... I wish... but i will do better for mom, treasure every moment, cherish every second spent with her, that is the least I could do. I will be strong, taking comfort in the Lord, trusting all things happen for good for those who love God and move on. Thanks for all the good you had sowed in my life, you will always be missed, your love and support will never be forgotten. GOODBYE PAPA, 再见老爸!!!!

Day Trip to Borneo Highland

Day trip to Borneo highland
Entrance fee for car Rm 10 for each person. Very steep and dangerous journey of about an hour. Upon reaching the car park, can go to Kalimantan View Point for another RM 10 each person. Very cooling at the highland, breathtaking view and relaxing ambient. Totally thumb up for the place, it have a lot of potential to be developed into somewhere like Cameron Highland. For those who are afraid of driving all the up and down, there is package available to visit all the attractions plus lunch. Refer to picture below for more info. 

Count It All Joy

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that testing of your faith produces patience. (James1:2-3)
17 January 2017, my love one admitted to hospital and diagnosed with cancer. Cancer, such a common and dreadful news, it was terrible feeling when I heard the news. How often we heard about it but never really bother that it might one day slip into our loved one. I still can remember the tears just burst into uncontrolled emotional breakdown. It was the testing of faith but I failed to acknowledge all thing is under God hand at that moment. Soon i resigned my job in KL and then rushed back to my hometown. Pastor and his wife is kind enough to give my sister and myself encouragement and support throughout that time. Not to mention the church actually come  together and pray for this matter. What make me fear the most is my dad is not a Christian, the fear of him fall into the fiery pit really shaken me. I rushed back and met my father at the hospital. Suddenly i can sense my father has been losing weight, the edges are clearly shown on the face. He looked pale and jaundice due to liver failure. No mercy has been given, one after another announment is about how worse his situation is. No medication can treat as it was classified as late stage only best supportive treatment given. It was desperate situation, everyone is holding back the tears and crying at the corner. Yet, when there is no hope given, i found hope, God open the door to my parents heart, gospel been preached to them for the first time. The Words of God will jot come back vain, so the seeds were sown. What a miracle after many years.
We went back home and continue to live and battling with the disease. The whole lifestyle changed , eating healthier and wholesome foods, boosting immune system via probiotic, enzyme and fruit juices. At the same time, we also try herbal medicine.
鳄嘴花Clinacanthus nutans，别名千里追、柔刺草、沙巴蛇草Sabah snake grass
And
雞骨草（學名：Abrus cantoniensis，英文名稱：Prayer-beads）
We tried as much as we could. Books were bought, video to explain bout the disease were downloaded to improve understanding. We encourage him to exercise a bit everyday. He seems perfectly fine except the ascite, the fluid accumulating in the abdomen is getting more and more. 20th Mar, he was admitted again to hospital. He couldn't breath well when the ascite actually suppressed his lung. Doctor remove 2 litres of fluid. My mother and myself take turn to care for him in hospital. I have failed to be dependent on God and indulge in various ways to run away from my responsibilities. When my dad was in the middle.of the drainage process, i looked at the blue curtain separating two different worlds in which my dad is striving and  where I could do nothing, nothing at all to relieve him of any discomfort. Then I noticed again, God can make impossible to be possible. Therein, God restore my faith again and again. He also reminding me the timing of God is perfect, my sister came back for a week for school holiday and that is the period my dad is being hospitalised. And now here am i accompanying my father in the hospital holding my little bible seeking comfort from God. 22 Mar 2017 10:07am, Hospital Serian.

人生。沉淀

当我把这二十二年的时间任由它沉淀时， 我很希望可以找到勇气，自信的钻石结晶。然而， 低头一看满满的皆是看似灿烂耀眼但毫无价值的玻璃碎片。一堆又一堆的仿冒品。-----待续

If I belong to God, Nothing Belong to me, EXCEPT HIM

VERSE 5
Therefore put to death your members which are on the earth: fornication, uncleanness, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. 
VERSE 6
 Because of these things the wrath of God is coming upon the sons of disobedience,

                                                             Colossians 3:5-6

 VERSE 5

Walk in wisdom toward those who are outside, redeeming the time. 

VERSE 6

 Let your speech always be with grace, seasoned with salt, that you may know how you ought to answer each one

                                                                         Colossians 4:5-6

            

God speak through His WORDS and it is always hard for sinner like us to follow His Will. We cant be PERFECT but we must STRIVE to kill off our sin day by day and reform ourselves to imitate our Lord Jesus Christ.Be it in our THOUGHT, SPEECH AND DEEDS. I pray that God , please forgive my many sins and help me to win over the dreadful sins that have been haunting me for years. I always remember God said His grace is sufficient for all and overtime we often forget that God and His angels are watching us and ready to help us. When we are sinning, do you know that God is watching and He grieved in His heart.
(Gen. 6:5-6 “Then the LORD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually. 6 And the LORD was sorry that He had made man on the earth, and He was grieved in His heart.” NKJV)